Sunday, November 15, 2015

Our Sudden French Patriotism

Ok, people.  Stop trying to make our sudden French Patriotism about racism.   There are viable reasons why this terrorist attack in Paris has stirred so many hearts in the US, and it isn't about race or class or favoritism in skin color.

War is horrific.  Terrorism is horrific.  Killing is horrific.  But there's are reasons we are so stirred by these horrific events in Paris, more so than many other horrific atrocities.

1.  Progeny.  Yes, the USA is very multicultural.  We have immigrants from all over the world here.   Probably every country.  I think people of European origin here are probably in the minority now compared with ppl of non-European ancestry.  But our country itself has only 3 parents:  Great Britain, France and Spain.  Yes, we fought them all to gain our independence, but we still have a filial loyalty toward them.   They are much more "important" to us than the rest of the world.  We feel more connected to them and ARE more connected culturally, in art, language, food and drink. 

Yes, we have many other cultures and  traditions here now.   They are all wonderful.  But that doesn't change who our nation's parents are!

2.  War and Peace.  Second reason: there are civil wars and border wars going on in Syria, Lebanon (Beirut), Iraq, Egypt, Kenya, and many other countries.  The list goes on and on.  Yes, these wars, and the terrorist activities of various groups in them are horriffic.  But nobody is surprised when bombs go off there killing innocents.  It seems like an every-day occurrence to those of us who live in non-war-torn countries.  It isn't that we don't care.  We simply can't keep track of all the bombings.  I'll wager it would take a week of the news staff at any major news network to tally all the suicide bombings in one of these war-torn places and give us a count of the bombings and a total body count.  It is simply normal human nature (and not a grand racist conspiracy) for most people to tune it out when there's another such bombing.  You'd go insane if you thought about all of them.  And maybe that's indeed one of the reasons so many ppl are going insane?

When something like this happens in a peaceful country, especially one so beloved for their art and culture, it sends out much bigger shock waves.  And many more people are inclined to speak out and show their support.

3.  It could have been here.  Because of our ties with France when we hear if horrific events like this,  here in the USA everyone recognizes: "It could have been here again."  Of course people are going to make a stand and show their support.  It is only natural.  This is their 9-11, and we will show our support and sympathy.

Sunday, June 28, 2015


In all my years as a Christian I have never been "a hater."  This is because I believe God is love. It is not possible to know God without having love, without experiencing love, without believing that love is the most important thing in life.

Most Christians know the Bible says this. They believe it to some degree or another, although some believe  erroneously that if you love people you have to change them and make them "correct."  And then they define what "correct" is by mining the more dubious areas of the Bible for substantiation of their own made-up views.  I have never believed in that kind of Christianity and it has always disgusted me. And yet until recent years I have never come out openly in support of LGBT.

What has changed?

The older I've grown in life, I have matured by widening my circle of friends and increasing the influence of many different kinds of people on my personal life, rather than becoming more closed minded like many people think they must do for maturity.  It is because I want to know truth, and truth is how people are, how they think and feel and believe.

One of the most important things that soon became evident to me was that many people do feel hated by Christians. It does not matter what Christians say they believe. What matters is how they act. This is why so many people in the LGBT community feel that many or most Christians are "haters."  They perceive in the way that they are treated and not accepted that the Christians insist on trying to change them to make them what the Christians inappropriately label "correct."

As soon as I realize this I decided that I couldn't live with myself unless I made a radical change in my acceptance of others.  This is why, today, this weekend, and from here on out I will PRIDE.  I will do everything I can to show my support, love, friendship, camaraderie, essential and relevant common humanity with all people: especially those marginalized by others whether it is because of race, religion, sexual orientation or any other thing. It is inappropriate and unscriptural and ungodly for Christians to think they have the right to be so arrogant as to superimpose their morals and ideals on others.

So I stand with them, and if you for whatever reason persecute them,  you persecute me too.

Friday, March 25, 2011

One Year in Reflection

Lessons Learned This Past Year

Today is a special day for me, not only because it is a Holy Feast Day in the Orthodox Church, but more importantly it is my one-year anniversary. It was one year ago today that I made a decision and was relieved of my “ordination” as a Reader in the Orthodox Church.

There were those in my life who felt gloomy about my decision. I did not. I felt not only relieved but full of joy at my newfound freedom. On this one-year anniversary, I would like to recount some of the lessons learned in this past year.

Lesson 1 – (probably the most important)

Don’t be gloomy. The world is beautiful beyond our imaginations. People are beautiful. There are wonders around every corner. Life is in full blossom of joy. Even in times of hardship the great joy that shines out from everything in the world around us is exceedingly beautiful. Take comfort in this. Enjoy what pleasures God sends your way no matter how small. They are there, the glimpses of Him in his creative handiwork. If you live your life expressing and participating in joy, you will discover that joy is like an avalanche, affecting everyone around you. When you give a smile, you generally get back even more than you have given.

Lesson 2 – (probably the second most important)

Ignore the haters. These people are characterized by a sense of superiority that they pretend like they don’t have toward others, but it comes out in their actions and interactions. They may for example tell you what is wrong with your life, or what you are doing wrong, or why you should do things this way or that way. They pretend like they are trying to help you, but really all they are doing is trying to make themselves feel superior to you. Don’t take anything they say seriously. Learn from them, yes, but never believe them, and never trust in them, and never ever allow them to demoralize you. They do not have your best interests in mind so take no heed to their thoughts or actions.

Lesson 3

Let yourself love unconditionally and without restriction. Don’t let your love for others become a form of bondage because of your own selfish expectations. Don’t ever expect anything in return and you will be pleasantly surprised by all who do love you back. But also don’t place limits on your love for others. Don’t ever tell yourself that your spouse is more important than your child, and your child is more important than your friends, and your friends are more important than your acquaintances, and your acquaintances are more important than a stranger. The most important person in your life is the one right there with you, whoever and wherever they may be. Treat that person with love and respect and joy, and don’t expect or demand anything in return. You will feel better for this than you would suffocating yourself with attachment to one single person. But true love is not fully detached, it is empathetic. Learn to experience both the joys and sufferings of others without letting their hardships demoralize you, or their love for people other than you send you into an abyss of jealousy, or their hatred of you make you angry. In the long run, hatred wears a person down, but love does not. You will win if you live by love.

Lesson 4

Ignore the betrayers. This could so easily have been combined with lesson two, but there is another kind of “hater” and that’s someone who was once in the role of friend and has become a hater instead. This is a little more difficult to deal with, because you once felt an attachment to them and a kinship with them. But if you can conquer Lesson 2 and Lesson 3, Lesson 4 will be easy. If someone was once a friend and has become “a hater” then they were never really a friend, since they had their own interests in mind all along, and never your interests. Don’t take them seriously, and don’t take the hurt you are feeling personally by turning it against them.

Lesson 5

Do things. Don’t be afraid to do things, to reach out in new ways, to learn new things, to meet new people, to love new people, to extend yourself beyond the life you’ve already got. The life you’ve already got is not a static thing, it is a dynamic thing. Don’t ever let yourself, and especially don’t ever let others, pigeonhole you. If you want to try some new activity that you can afford to spend the time or money on and isn’t bad for you, just do it. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t do something, that you aren’t good enough, or smart enough, or are too old, or whatever. You can do anything that you set your mind to, if it is important enough to you. Most importantly, you are never too old to learn something new.

Lesson 6

Encounter God. God is everywhere in the world around us, His beauty sustaining the universe like a celestial garment. While God’s grace is present in the services and sacraments of Church, He does not limit himself to this. God’s beauty and grace is everywhere. Open your eyes and see it. While I love the beauty of God in the services and artwork of Church, and there I am brought in a certain sense “closer to Him” it would be erroneous to believe God can only be encountered in Church. There are those who try to convince you that you can only encounter God at Church. That is a lie. If you cannot encounter God outside of Church, it is unlikely you are truly encountering him in Church. Most likely in Church you are deluding yourself with notions of encounter, and not actually encountering God, because He is bigger than the glimpses of Himself you are given at Church, as beautiful, mystical and holy as these glimpses may be.

Lesson 7

God wants you to be whole. You have certain natural talents and abilities toward creativity and improvement. You also have certain natural tendencies towards entropy and degeneration (aka sin). It is most likely that these things are closely associated with one another. Personal wholeness consists of allowing yourself to become filled up with the former so that it pushes out the latter. Every person is different. There is no “one solution” to a perfectly whole life. You are unique and what works for others may not work for you. As you personalize and integrate the six “lessons” before this, the seventh starts to take shape. The more you become an authentic person, the more beautiful the world around you becomes and the more beautiful you personally become, inside, where you need to be beautiful.

Lesson 8 and Conclusion

Get up and walk.

That’s been my lessons for the past year. I haven’t always been “successful” at what I have learned. Much of the time I’ve learned what the right thing was, by doing the opposite. I started out 2010 exceedingly gloomy and didn’t make an about-face until late April or early May. I have got some of the concepts down in my head now, but I haven’t fully mastered how they will work out in my life. But I truly believe I am on the right path toward the whole person God wants me to be. I look forward to what the next year brings with all of its sorrows and joys, lessons and struggles, triumphs and failures both, because in the end every failure can become a personal triumph if only we will listen to our own hearts and observe carefully our own lives, and whenever we are down, pick ourselves right back up again and walk. You only get somewhere by walking.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Dead Girl Walking

Dead Girl Walking

(First a little blurby... I've been writing a lot of poetry in a form of musical lyrics. If you or someone you know would like to make this into a song, please contact me. This particular piece was inspired jointly by a character in my next book, and by a certain photo I found on deviant art. I will try to find a link to the photo and post it. Here it is...)

Dead Girl Walking

I've been walking
Walking with the dead
Girl I've been talking
Talking with the dead

How she sings
The flesh slipping down her skull
Make a pretty face

I've been talking
Talking withe the dead
Girl I've been walking
Walking with the dead

Long road
Narrow pass
Desolation greets
At the mouth of the tunnel
Your red socks
Black dress and nobby knees
Held together by a key
On a scarlet ribbon
And a smile

Don't drop your face
Dead girl walkin

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Musings from Muse and The Fray

This is the last time I'll abandon you
And this is
The last time I'll forget you
I wish I could

Look to the stars
Let hope burn in your eyes
And we'll love and we'll hate and we'll die
All to no avail, all to no avail

* * * *

Don't talk, don't say a thing
Cause your eyes they tell me more than your words
Don't go, don't leave me now
Cause they say the best way out is through

And I am short on words knowing what's occurred
She begins to leave because of me

Her bag is now much heavier
I wish that I could carry her
But this is our ungodly hour

Friday, December 03, 2010

John Merrick kidnapped by faeries

Apparently I am an expert on John Merrick.

An expert? How so? you ask.

Well, my blog gets dozens of hits per day to this page right here:

John Merrick was known as "The Elephant Man" because he had a rare skin disease.

Well, now I am here to tell you the WHOLE STORY.

Here's a little poem by Isaac Watts that was a favorite of John Merrick:

'Tis true my form is something odd,
But blaming me is blaming God;
Could I create myself anew
I would not fail in pleasing you.

If I could reach from pole to pole
Or grasp the ocean with a span,
I would be measured by the soul;
The mind's the standard of the man.

It is interesting when you think about the fact that "beauty is in the eye of the beholder" and there is a beauty of spirit that transcends any grotesqueness of body.

Fairies, conceptually, are all about beautiful little creatures that wreak havoc, causing misery and misfortune wherever they go. If you think about it, there are some parallels.

The important thing is that Merrick was actually kidnapped by fairies (that bad sort) as an infant and brought back with all these physical deformities. How he lived his life thereafter is a testament to courage.

As for me, I'm trying to kidnap my own blog and bring it back on topic.


Thursday, November 04, 2010

Silence the Feeling

There is nothing so lonely
As knowing
That I cannot love you

You think you have a nightmare
But you do not know
Can never know
The storm

There is nothing so lovely
As knowing
That I love you